Finding oneness in the vacuum of space: A journey into the canyon grand.

There are a great many reasons one would choose to give up, A dark outtake to begin this journey I’m sure. However I wanted to begin with this sentiment for one reason. Among the many reasons for our minds to consider the end, the reasons for us to consider living on seem slim to none in comparison. This however is all determined by the view; the lens with which we perceive this reality is at its most simple root. THE determining factor of wether we I’ve in pain or pleasure.

For me this lens has been a life long struggle, of point of view and of foresight. When pain is at the forefront of our vision, it seems impossible to see past it. This great and unyielding beast of suffering we must actively battle everyday just to breathe; A battle we are under the illusion of losing each day. I think though, that makes the conquering of that beast even more delicious.

That brings me to the canyon. When I accepted my position working in the Grand Canyon early January this year, I was under the impression I was doing better. That even though I hadn’t done too much intense emotional or spiritual work, I had healed from my recent traumas and pains simply because I was not feeling them. Incorrect assumptions about healing are a tool of the ego. I learned that rather quickly and soon it felt like I was fighting that beast all over again, and poorly.

I say all this not to set a dismal tone, but to place you in my shoes. I had moved across the country to this indescribably beautiful place, with someone who I felt was to be my partner for the rest of my mortal days and even beyond; and all I could do was wallow and fester in this unsealed pain. It blocked the view of even the canyon, which is all on its own a structure of Neolithic age and size. It infected my relationship to the point of losing it, and it caused me to enter what was arguably my most detrimental fight or flight state to date. I want to share what the canyon taught me; its people, its power, and its ability to reflect what is most deeply hidden within us.

I invite you to release your ideas of what is and what isn’t. To allow your lens to open and shift, and to join me on this journey of healing and self discovery.

Pain is never permanent it is only a process.

-With love Ase